Reflections

Its the middle of the night and I am up, once again, unable to sleep through the night. I think there could be a myriad of reasons one could come up with to diagnose my insomnia, but nevertheless here she is, rearing her ugly head, disturbing my other wise, well I guess otherwise also troubled life at the moment.

1. I don't sleep because its the only time I am truly alone, alone with my thoughts,my dreams, my Lord.  Could the answer be that easy?

2. I don't sleep due to the pain in my left hip, and the desire to know what in the world is causing this pain that came out of no where and chose to set up residence in my hip ,much against my will I must say,

3. I simply cannot sleep due to the pain I feel constantly in the a for mentioned Left hip.

4. What If? Two words, but with such meaning. Is this what really keeps me up despite the drugs that I am popping.

If I am honest, I think its one and four. I know there are nights when in reality I really cannot sleep because prescription drugs fail to work correctly, and the pain is real and it keeps me up. But truly, what goes through my mind at these times are the What ifs, and Whys and What am I going to do about this.

This is a time I am completely alone, everyone else is sleeping soundly.

I could choose to spend it in the word of God, in meditation with Him, in prayer. Mostly I choose blind numbing TV watching were I get the opportunity to engage in nothing at all. I stray away from the what ifs in this way. I feel I am scared to examine, to look deeper, so I continue to take the easy way out almost every time.

What does this say about me? 

TONIGHT YOU SEE, i AM SCARED. i AM SCARED FOR MY HEALTH.

yet ANOTHER HEALTH Issue HAS COME UP AND i DON'T KNOW THE DIAGNOSIS NOR THE TREATMENT  AT THIS TIME. i AM UP TONIGHT DUE TO FEAR, BUT AM REMINDED THROUGH THE WONDERFUL SAVING GRACE OF GOD OUR FATHER TO REMAIN STEAD FAST AND STRONG IN THE LORD. My GO TO VERSE WHEN i AM FEELING OVERWHELMED CAME STRAIGHT TO MY HEAD AND FOR THIS i AM SO THANKFUL.

"You will keep in perfect peace, him whose mind is steadfast because he TRUSTS in You"-Isiah 26:3
So we pray for peace in our day to day lives, peace in times of uncertainty, peace in times of the unthinkable, because with God we can stand Steadfast.
-writing out my thoughts is often my way of meditating, spending time with my Lord, its the way I feel closet, the way for me to think through my thoughts and to meditate over verse that have presented to me to ruminate on.........

Jack's trip to Atlanta and the Civil War Mtn Climb

In late March Jackson got to go with Mimi and PopPop to Atlanta to Uncle Matt, Aunt Laura and Tatum's house.

I have been late with my posting of the pics.

They got some great pics, and Jackson had a wonderful time climbing Mt. Kennesaw. Jackson is a great lover of HISTORY and read every Marker as they walked up the mountain. He soaked it all in and had so much excitement that he brought home, it was fun to see that in my child.

So here are all of the PICS:

Easter 2010 in the Yaman/Hooper/Brooker World

We had a wonderful Easter this year, 

celebrating Jesus Risen From The Grave!!!

We had a great meal with Family and even had some fun times with Easter Egg Hunts and Easter Basket Hunts.

Check out our Pics:

Easter Preperations With Our Friends

This year we spent the Friday before Easter dying eggs and making Easter Cookies with some wondeful friends!

Check out some of our pictures!!!!

This is a pic I LOVE and just never posted. I don't think I ever posted anything from Halloween this fall.

So here it is.

HALLOWEEN 2009

From Fall 09 Tatum

From Fall 09 Tatum

From Fall 09 Tatum

From Fall 09 Tatum

BETTER LATE THAN NEVER....

Another song thats words are wonderful....

The words are especially special tonight to me as I am FEARFUL.

YOU ARE MY HIDING PLACE

You are my hiding place

You always fill my heart

With songs of deliverance

Whenever I am afraid

I will trust in You

I will trust in You

Let the weak say

I am strong

In the strength of the Lord

You are my hiding place

You always fill my heart

With songs of deliverance

Whenever I am afraid

I will trust in You

I will trust in You

Let the weak say I am strong

In the strength of the Lord

I will trust in You

TORNADOS and ME go way BACK....

Today there was a tornado warning.... Lots of bad storms, looks like warnings, watches, etc.. will be all night long.
Guess who will be up all night long tonight while most all of Lexington is sleeping in their beds with no thoughts of the storms...that would be ME.

See, I have a past with these things.....
and now I just cannot seem to take them for granted, they are serious when they happen and they can just pop up so fast when the conditions are right....

So tonight I will be downing the coffee, and spending some time with my Lord, asking for PEACE.

After all these years my heart still races a million miles an hour at the word TORNADO.

There was a big tornado that did MAJOR DAMAGE in Lexingon when I was in high school.

Do ya'll remember that one?
Does it effect you too?
Where were you when it hit?

I was in the drive through at BoJangles, with 3 little kids in the car (and my brother).
To actually see this massive torando right behind you,

 to hear it,

to feel it.

WOW , was it something that will be with me forever.
I had to run out of the car and into the store, with the kids, and get them under a table and lay on top of them. All the windows shattered, but we were safe. When it was over, and we walked outside. My car was there, all doors still open somehow, the windshild smashed in..., and all of Lexington was DEMOLISHED,  I mean just flat out gone, other restraunts totally flattened. It was so sureal that I just cannot explain what it felt like.
I somehow got back into the car, got towards my house the best I could, but there was no getting home. Trees blocked all the roads. ( and back then there were no such things as cell phones, alteast I didn't have one)

So as I watch this tonight, my heart is gripped with fear.
Are my kids safe in the closet sleeping on the floor if I doze of at the wrong time tonight?
What if???

Then I remember who is in charge.

My LORD GOD never falls asleep.
He is always overseeing His Lambs.

O The Lord is my light and my salvation; Whom shall I fear? The Lord is the strength of my life; Of whom shall I be afraid? (Ps 27.1)

The Lord is my rock and my fortress and my deliverer; My God, my strength, in whom I will trust; My shield and the horn of my salvation, my stronghold. (Ps 18.1-2)

Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God; and the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus. (Philip 4.6-7)

Whenever I am afraid, I will trust in You. (Psalm 56:3)

 

Thank you Dear Lord for your Word. For all that you give to me in my time of FEAR. These verses that I could go to have helped greatly to calm my nerves. Please calm my heart tonight, be near and help me through tonight. Help me to focus on your words to me straight from the Bible, rather than my fears of possiblities to come with this storm.....