BRING ON THE RAIN God, if thats what it takes to be closer to you.I want to have Faith, that strong never waivering Faith. that kind that no matter what life brings, no matter the dry spell, or the rocky spell, or WHATEVER.... I will have Faith in God that is strong and unwaivering. That is my biggest prayer.
How about ya'll out there????
Does anybody else struggle with feeling so far away from this goal????
I know I am human, I know I am going to screw up along the way, but I so much want to have that.
So God, bring on the rain, anything it takes... I know I have had the rocky, but as it has started to straighten out I am already feelin, yep I can do this on my own. I am already back to that so easily. So often. I KNOW BETTER. But I live it out differently. Am I the only one??
Its back to my illustration I love to use of the "God BOX", I am so apt to try and say, oh I can do this, and that and that there on my own, and just try and put him, THE one who loves me and wants to help me with everything, in a box on the shelf for when I really need him, or when I think its important.I I I, all about me me me.....so easily, so fast.
Please do not let me do this Lord. I know you want to commune with me, to spent intimate time with me. I wan tht too, Ireally do. So why don't i act like it??? Why do I let busy busy life run over whats so important. You and serving you and doing things to please you are what should matter most....yet I continue to get wrapped up in everything else that matters so little.
AHHHHHHH>>>>> Please forgive me for trying to do it all on my own. Please continue to pursue me, to pull me back to you, over, and over. I know you will and I feel so blessed to call you MY LORD!!!!!
i don't know if anyone reading this can relate, but I would think so. Its just so hard to stop and realise that our life, our purpse on this earth is not all the STUFF, all the craziness we get swept up in... ITS GLORIFYING OUR LORD!!!!
What a word...so simple to throw out there... not as simple to truley live.
WE are studying Habbakuk in SS and that book has really hit me, really gotten me thinkin (even though we have missed so many weeks of class =( )
Today we talked about how FAITH is basically Patience and Rejoicing no matter the circumstance. NO MATTER THE CIRCUMSTANCE, Patience and Rejoicing in God. Faith in God's Plan Faith in God's Justice Faith in God's TIMING,
So, No matter what the circumstance we are to glorify GOd, Have Faith in him ( meaning patience in his plan, that he will bring justice, that his timing is PERFECT,
and REJOICE in him, despite the circumstances, again knowing he has a plan, with his own timing.
Habbakuk did this...Simon Peter was learning this also in Luke 5.
Psalm 73 is one of my favorite ones, it talks a lot about personal angst, questioning and then seeing God's GLory, his SANCTUARY it turns to PRAISE.. I don't have my bible with me this second or I would quote some of it here. ITs just the best. Its so something I can relate often in feelings.
SO>>>back to the words of my favorite christian song....my feverent prayer....
BRING ON THE RAIN God, if thats what it takes to be closer to you.
I want to have Faith, that strong never waivering Faith.
We have to spend time with you, so that in the questioning times, the hard times, the dry times, we can go back to Your WORD and time and time again you show how you have FURTHERED YOUR KINGDOM DESPITE ALL ODDS!!!
I just wanted to get all of these thoughts out. This seems to be the place I go to for that purpose now and then.
Still no pics, no camera to date.
Sooooo SAD! My camera is broken....so no pics for awhile!
Everyone is well though.
My new job is truckin along nicely. Thanks to all who prayed and prayed for me while we waited for this job to start! Its INFORMATION OVERLOAD, but I am loving it. I love going to patients homes, I think Home Healht is where the Lord wants me to be. Each place I feel so touched. I think I could get really sucked in... I will have to be careful or it could take over me....but I know I will learn the balance just as all the other homehealth nurses have. There is so much need out there ya'll, so much pain, so much loss....I could go on forever after just a few visits!!!! PLEASE REMEMBER THOSE LESS FORTUNATE in your prayers. We, meaning me, get so caught up in our own STUFF and forget all that is really out there, ya know???? well I gotta run. I hope for a new or fixed camera before too long. Erika